MY LIFE CHANGED AFTER WITNESSING THE
BLESSED MOTHERS TEARS
It was on August 1, 1987, that I first visited the
Blessed Mothers House in Naju at the suggestion of a Sister. At that
time, the Blessed Mothers statue was in Julias apartment. I saw
people quietly praying before her statue. It was a very peaceful and
Later, on July 30, 1990, I visited Naju for the second
time with a lay person. At that time, the Blessed Mothers House (the
Chapel) was under construction. The Blessed Mothers statue was
temporarily in the dining room, which was crowded with pilgrims praying
the rosary. I also knelt and prayed.
In April 1991, I was traveling in the United States. In
New York, I stayed at Mrs. Veronica Lims house. There I was shown a
video: Marian Apparitions of the 20th Century,
which had a section covering Naju. I felt ashamed of my lack of attention
to Naju. These people, who were thousands of miles away from their
homeland, were deeply interested in the Blessed Mother of Naju and were
praying, but I, who live so close to it, had been indifferent. I felt very
sorry to the Blessed Mother. I thought that I would surely visit Naju
again after my return to Korea. Then, I forgot about Naju again. One day,
a devout parishioner asked me if I wanted to go to Naju with him. I
answered, "Maybe a few days later," because I was busy
with something else at that time. However, I began thinking intensely
about Naju since then and could not concentrate on any other work. So I
called the parishioner and said, "Lets go to Naju
On May 23, 1991, I arrived at the Blessed Mothers
House in Naju together with the above-mentioned parishioner. I prayed
before the Blessed Mothers statue, "Mother! My faith is weak.
Open my hardened heart and guide me so that I may love and honor you
more." While praying, I got closer to the Blessed Mothers
statue and looked at her. I was so surprised, because I saw a tear drop
forming in one of her eyes. To make sure, I slightly touched the tear with
the tip of the cross on my rosary. Then, the tear flowed down! I began
crying, because I knew she was shedding tears because of me who had been
weak in faith and ignorant about shortcomings in my priestly life. I began
remembering my 20 years of priestly life like a movie. I could not control
my tears. They must have been tears of repentance.
At that moment, Julia came and prayed for me. Soon she
fell down on the floor and entered an ecstasy. Because she was not waking
up soon, her helpers said, "She may be receiving a message," and
began carrying her into her house next to the Chapel. While they were
carrying her, I was surprised again, because I clearly saw scratch marks
on her both arms, both legs and neck. These marks appeared suddenly. I
learned later that they were made by Satan who was attacking Julia. I felt
amazed and even a little fearful, because I had never seen such a thing
before. Satan attacked her, because he did not like a priest coming to see
Julia. I could understand this better when I remembered the lives of the
Saints: St. John Bosco, St. John Vianney, and others.
Since then, I have continued to visit the Blessed
Mothers House in Naju and witness more tears and fragrant oil from her
statue. These visits have enabled me to look back at my life. Why has the
Blessed Mother shed tears, tears of blood, and blood from her nose? Why
has she shed tears of blood for priests? I found answers in the messages
of the Blessed Mother in Naju. I was especially moved by her message on
August 11, 1985: "Priests are now like a light before wind. They
are being subjected to temptations. The windows of rectories are left
open. Through the open windows, three devils (of pride, materialism and
lust) are peeking in. Close the windows of rectories." Until
then, I had been confident that I had not made any big mistakes. The
Blessed Mother awakened me and prodded me to live a totally consecrated
life like Jesus.
So I began offering up my attachments one after
another. I offered up smoking, because I had been a heavy smoker. I also
gave up golf, which I had played once or twice per week. I reduced
drinking to a minimum and also limited TV-watching to news. More important
than these external offerings was the internal self-denial, turning life
into prayers and walking the way of a little person with the heart of a
child. Thus, it means to live the life that Jesus taught us: "Whoever
humbles himself like this child is the greatest in the kingdom of
heaven" (Matthew 18:4). Our age is an age of disbelief and
disrespect. People disbelieve each other and disbelieve Gods Words.
Ours is an age that rejects God.
Furthermore, the mystery of the supernatural world is
being ignored. People approach the Holy Eucharist in a superficial way,
promoting disrespect for this Mystery. Priests frequently celebrate Mass
without preparation and people frequently receive Communion without going
to Confession. I myself had offered superficial prayers and Divine Office
and celebrated Mass out of habit. I am grateful to the Blessed Mother for
calling me to reform my life.
On April 1, 1993, Bishop William McNaughton of the
Inchon Diocese said during a retreat in a parish: "The Blessed
Mother is imploring us with her apparitions and tears at several places.
Especially in Naju, she is giving us messages through Julia. These
messages have not been officially approved by the Church yet, but you are
free to believe them because they do not contradict the Church teachings.
However, you must be obedient to the superiors in the Church." He
continued, "I know both Julia and her husband, Julio, well. They
are an exemplary couple and parents. They are devout lay people with deep
faith. Julio is a civil servant and president of the parish council in
Naju. The country and the Church can make progress by the self-sacrificing
services of such couples, parents and lay people."
After attentively and carefully observing the events in
the Blessed Mothers House in Naju for the past several years, I believe
that there is no conflict with the Church teachings and that they are
Julia has suffered severe pains in reparation for the
sins of abortion, pains in her sides, pains of the Five Wounds of the
Lord, and more. She could not have endured these, if the Holy Spirit had
not been with her. It is not only myself but many other priests who are
saying this. Can we, priests, also say "Lord, praise to you,"
or, "Your will be done," and endure the pains that Julia
has suffered for the conversion of sinners after she asked for suffering
to participate in the sufferings of Jesus and the Blessed Mother?
I have witnessed many women repenting their sins of
abortion, non-practicing Catholics returning to the Church, broken
families restoring peace, and members of other religions and the
Protestant denominations converting to the Catholic Church. I believe that
these numerous precious fruits are graces from the Blessed Mother. When I
look back at my past 22 years as a priest, I find so many mistakes and
failures. From now on, I need to live a life filled with joy, love, peace
and vitality instead of a life of stagnation. As a priest who is entrusted
with the well-being of souls, I will hear Confession diligently so that
they may receive the Lord as clean souls, as numerous sheep are walking
toward hell and perdition without even knowing it.
"Lord, who comes to all of us as love at every
Help us love You more. Let us realize that our life
itself is a miracle and be grateful to You always. Let us sing the
Paschal Mystery of the Lord. Let us console the Blessed Mother who is
weeping under the Cross, by repenting, praying, and offering up
sacrifices and reparations. Amen."
Rev. Aloysius Hong Bin Chang
Yumjoo-dong Catholic Church
May 30, 1993
Feast of the Pentecost